Friday 2 October 2015

Thinking positive!

I can't believe it's already time to start module 2 again! Where has the time gone?! I hope everyone has had a chilled and relaxing summer break, I know I certainly have. At the moment I do feel a tad overwhelmed at delving into module 2, but I guess I have to muster up some confidence and just go for it!
Today has really been a day of getting my brain into uni mode again and attempting to create some potential lines of inquiry. A few weeks ago I brainstormed some ideas that kept popping into my head whilst I was on my lunch break at work; issues I believe should be addressed in the dance industry and in vocational schools, and some focusing on past experiences at dance college.


However, after a phone call with Paula Nottingham this afternoon, I realised that this brainstorm was in fact connected to negative views I obtain on the industry. They are merely statements that I believe are unjust or derogatory in the system and they are not topics that interest me. 

What do I want to do? What do I love to do?  I have come to the conclusion that I have turned a blind eye to my creative side since I stopped dancing due to my injuries, and I have in a way accepted that I might not dance professionally again and that is that. But why? Yes I am currently working in retail so I can pay the bills at the end of the month, but it shouldn't stop me from being curious and attentive to the dance world. I know my dancing past has been tainted with bad experiences, but my future should be veering towards the more positive impact dance has on me and my life!
I think I need to accept the process of learning, collecting and building on information that interests me instead of feeling anxious and wanting things to happen quickly, because the learning cycle doesn't work that way. Instead of pondering on the negative experiences, I need to draw on the positive, and allow my creative thinking to flow......